I first met
Ken at the Mountain Of Attention just after sitting with Adi Da,
then later at parties for him in Marin County. We have the same
I have always
appreciated Ken's books and praise his work as "the greatest words
on earth by a living mortal".
We all owe Ken
great great praise. He is one of my heroes, razor sharp and holographic.
But Ken is not fully enlightened and so we must understand his limitations
and delusions as well as his brilliance. With regards to his latest
letter (August) addressing the "Strange
Case of Adi Da", Ken's limitations and projections upon Adi
Da are only that, his projections. I can understand how someone
involved in self-creation could make these mistakes. I have lived
in a small room with Adi Da for months and I have seen and experienced
His Brutal Simplicity and Service and shared many of the same projections
What is Ken's
actual experience of Adi Da aside from a few darshan occasions?
He has read Adi Da's books and acknowledge his word to be the most
enlightened. But the person? What does he know of him from actual
experience? Does he know of him only through the negative reactions
and negative stories he has heard from individuals who could not tolerate
the heat of his company? Maybe he has read Georg Feuerstein's book
"Madness and Holy Men" or other such books that speak of these things.
Ken states repetitively
that no one cannot afford to be AT LEAST a student of the written
teaching of Adi Da. He brought with this praise a reaction most
people do to the God-Man Adi Da. It is a COMMON mistake for those
who stand far away from the fire of "Truth". Ken speaks of Adi Da
in breathtaking superlatives, acknowledging him as The Sat Guru
of Today and then talking of his dangerous behavior. He tries to reconcile
this contradiction with illogical paradox to bridge this "gap".
This is a very
common and traditional misunderstanding when trying to make some
sanity out of a seemingly insane situation. I understand this reaction.
Adi Da is not nice, not a gentleman, as the title of the book ["God
Is Not a Gentleman and I Am That One"] states. He is as
ruthless as He is gracious. Let me share with you a little of my
experience with this Ruthless and Loving Master. I lived in a small
room with Adi Da for many months and I saw and EXPERIENCED His Brutal
Simplicity and Service. It took me months and years to begin to
understand His Fire and Ferocity. The time between my initial, immature
reaction and the wave of unending gratitude, a thousand points of
view could be seized upon. Only afterwards were the lessons understood.
What had been seen as "so horrible" was transformed into freedom and
Days with Him
would begin with the consideration of Truth and Practice, then with
brilliant humor or passionate consideration. He revealed those present
to themselves, like a Priest in a Puja, setting a fire upon each
altar. Then He would reveal Himself and baptize all in waves of
joy and Love-Bliss. Consideration — then self-understanding — then Baptism.
He would let your withdrawal from love be seen in His Sweet Fire
of Love. His ruthless pursuance of your obstructions to joy could
take milliseconds or years to comprehend. He didn't really care
if it took you years or even lifetimes.
He gave everyone
everything. But my observation was that Heart-Servant Adi Da always
was only gracious, even at His most forceful bluntest. I never
saw Him unloving, I never saw Him unfree. I spent twelve hours a
day most days in His House. I never saw Him in any way that was
not absolute and complete service, not a fraction of anything outside
of loving brilliance.
His Force, a thousand logics may riddle you and me. I tried to resolve
the conflict between enlightenment and unenlightenment, Crazy Wisdom
and the crazy behavior of an Adept. The logic of the mind will come
up with all kinds of harebrained schemes to deny the Liberator in
Person. It has been my experience and observation that dissatisfaction
with Adi Da is the same as the refusal to love and to understand
ourselves. This is what he shows us: ourselves. I have never experienced
Him as anything but a Heart Servant, Fierce and Sweetness Himself.
This is what
people complain about and struggle with. Some people got fried or
burned by the fire and reacted to the intensity in logics of power.
I have seen this in myself and in all others, and it has been my
observation that those who understood themselves the least are the
ones with the most complaints. Brilliance too bright for self-possessed
individuals, this is true. Ken is correct on this point, the Way
of the Divine Person is the most difficult understanding, where
misunderstanding surrounds it in lesser satisfactions. Do not casually
approach the God-Man Adi Da, and do not put down an acclaimed living
god-man because you don't fully understand who he is. The need to
be right and safe in the logic of your own mind is a delusion we
all share. This logic will be exactly the act that keeps us from